Can't Sleep.....

Been a while since I made a post... and tbh i'm gonna screw off capitols >.< annoy me...
anyhow, lots has happend, extremely lots.. 1 of the most important things in my life happend and i'm really happy bout it, but with  school combined with being sick and feeling like a useless idiot (yes i know i am according 2 some people, i admit its true) i haven't had the time 2 write stuff on here...
So i guess i'll start with some stuff...

Right off the bat, i'm engaged! to the lovliest and sweetest partner alive and i have no regrets @ all, been 3 weeks since that day almost and wearing that ring constantly (its part of me, its like its been the missing piece to fill up a big void, some might understand.. )
It took a lot from me the 2 weeks prior to it all, the day we bought the rings or rather fitted them was.. a day which i hadn't expected but still it was amazing, rapunzel was the shit! but i wrote bout that some time ago already! XD
Anyhow, i had a breakdownish thing but i realized something in particular, something i found out i haven't been doing a lot... then again i had no1 to talk with bout that kinda stuff or any1 tell me to do so.. so its sort of a discovery... anyhow, i'll leave that for sometime else..

It was eventfull, i imagined i'd ask the question @ perfect midnight but that went wrong, ended up a few minutes later ( 13 to be exact :P ).. needless 2 say i was a nerv wreck, i messed up a lot, wrote a poem, had it in my head.. but then i freaked out... whaha... epic comedian moment xD.... did call my mom tho and had a talk with her and she congratulated us which was awsome..  (THX MOM! :D )
Anyhow, the day after that it was another big day, dressed in black with grey i think and a tie... and we went 2 ask her parents for their blessing, whom  in turn decided to pop a bottle of champagne xD guess what they said! whaha..

So yeah... it was extremely eventfull, then i had to get back 2 school homework crap but... something else happend... kind of scared me shitless and that person knows how deeply i care and also what it meant on what was occuring... good thing tho is that it ended in a good way, i'll refrain from this topic because its private, personal and most of all important not 2 talk about in such a way that any1 would find out who / what / etc.

So then all i did was homework homework, and to be honest... i dont recall the last time i've been out with my fiancée... when i got sick last friday at least when i was around her area i dropped by, sick as a dog but i rlly couldnt wait for longer....

Anyhow... i've downloaded FF9 for the ps1, and guess what! I HAVE AN EMULATOR! :D so i played that... kind of finished it! just a few more final weapons to go and some leveling, finishing up a sidequest or so and BAM i've completed the entire game... oh yah.. i should kill that swirly energy ball thing "Ozma" before opeining the Hadies synth shop, but i'll get Ark! finally! xD....
Right... so while i was sick i didn eat anything... well barely... and i had some sleeping pillz and a couple of others.. and as always i got a bloody rash... thank god its gone now cause it annoyed me.... well oke its not entirely gone but its less noticable... anyhow...
i finally felt better but then i sort of got sad.. and more or less locked myself away with fried food and minimal outside world contact...

Things looking up tho for me but i'm still not the happiest till i can see my fiancée, reason being that our schedules are shitty.... both of us have classes 2 attend so we can't see each other as much as we want to.... and with classes comes homework.... meaning i will either have 2 do "homework" @ her place or not see her till the next thursday.... which for me sounds like a fucking hell so im bound 2 intrude in the weekends.. 

Asside from all that, i failed CD so i'll have 2 redo that next year... if i finish all my courses this semester then i'm free 2 do my final intern and finish everything up.. wihch i cant wait to do... will have a few weeks off after that and spend my time gaming and job hunting.. tho i think i'd be 2 busy with a job as everything in life costs money (even traveling.... ) and i'd love 2 buy stuff i'd want or do stuff i'd love 2 do without having 2 bounce every penny around in hopes of not going bankrupt or something annoying like that... so i'll be opening another account for savings and stuff but w/e...

I just dunno tho... i've become restless without my love soo... if i dont want to go emo and /wrists or /headdesk then i'd best be seeing her soon cause i dunno if im gonna be able 2 keep my sanity.... and its noticable on my side... but the same goes for her xD both of us are practically going insane... which is kind of bad.. xD extremely bad xD...

Before i close this off tho, i do apologise for my behaviour and being the idiot that i am... only 1 person should understand what i mean by that, hopefully.. xD...

Right... time 2 continue with homework crap... or have a quick nap or something... hope i can sleep a bit.... will need it!

~Toxin

P.S. I love my fiancée, best you guys know :P cause i'll drop lots just for her... in terms of who i'd drop everything for on the spot would be a few people... After having written down the ranking thing i deleted it cause it would cause some people 2 go "WTF! I AM MORE IMPORTANT!" and i dun feel like dealing with that. Most important people 2 me are Mom, Fiancée, brother / sister ( be it by blood or not ) and then the rests of the people.. (could jot you all down but screw that, would be 2 long of a list!)